What a Weekend!

Good Monday Morning!


Hope everyone had a great weekend... I sure did! :)


Friday started with a great run. I ran 2.5km without stopping and I felt great! 
I also had a great day food-wise. I wish I could start every day with a workout because it really helps me stay on track with my eating throughout the day. Unfortunately, I leave for work at 6:30am, so I'd have to go to the gym at 4:30am and that's not happening!


Saturday was also a fantastic day! We went to a birthday party for our friends' sons' second birthday. It was fun and super cute! I managed to eat OK here. I had 2 cookies and a couple chips with dip and a glass of wine. I also realized that  I shouldn't drink wine.. it makes me very red in the face! (more so than any other alcohol). 


Saturday night we headed downtown Toronto with 4 friends to see these guys!!

I love Anthony Keids. 

Red Hot Chili Peppers!!

The concert was everything I hoped it would be and more! They were amazing and sounded exactly as they do on their records. *sigh* I love them :)

I drank a little too much and ate some late night nachos, but it was all worth it... We really enjoyed ourselves. 

Sunday we headed to Canada's Wonderland, to meet up with my boyfriends sister and her two little girls. I'm a big roller coaster fan and they have a new one this year that's the 5th largest in the world. Unfortunately, after saturday night's events, there was no way I was going on it. So I went to Snoopy land with the girls :) 

We ended up having Wendy's for lunch and a ate a little bit of funnel cake. After a lot of walking and a few rides, we headed home. We were both exhausted and I had the WORST cramps I've ever had in my life, so we pretty much laid in bed all night. 

I'm trying to limit the amount of times that I weigh myself to once or twice a week. I got into the habit of weighing myself daily and I'm trying to stop that. That being said, I really wanted to check this morning to make sure that I didn't do too much damage. The scale was up a little bit, but not enough to worry me. I imagine it's a lot of water weight and it should come off fairly easy. My goal this week is to run 3 times and go to the gym at least twice. 

Happy Monday everyone! 

Chili Peppers!

no, not the food...

the band!!

I'm going to see them tonight and I am SO excited! They are one of my all time favourite bands and I've been anxiously awaiting their Canadian tour. Me, my boyfriend and 4 others are headed downtown Toronto for the night, so it should be a pretty good time! :D

I love going to concerts. I've been to a number of them in my day and the list is pretty random, but so is my taste in music. Some of my favourite shows were:

- 98 degrees (first concert ever, with my parents)

- Our Lady Peace

- Alice Cooper (front row!)

- Rise Against

- Bon Jovi <3

- Eminem & Jay Z

- Def Leppard

- Heart

- weezer & Blink 182

and many, many more. 

Weigh-In Day!

So my long weekend is off to a good start!
Today is my weigh-in day and the scale says that I'm -2lbs! :)


I wanted to be all fancy and take a picture of my scale like the other bloggers, but I wasn't prepared... and my scale is really small which makes it awkward. 


I would LOVE to be in the 250's next week (262 today), so I will definitely be keeping that number in mind while I'm out and about this weekend. 


Plan for today: drop bf off at work, do a couple errands, go for a jog, clean apartment, relax! :)


Happy Friday Everyone!

Long Weekend!

Today is my Friday, yay!


A couple months ago my work started a program called "Fortnight". Basically we work an extra half hour every day and we get every other friday off... it's freakin' awsome! 


I look forward to my short weeks SOOO much! It makes getting out of bed at 5:45am that much easier in the morning :)

Overweight doesn't always mean unhealthy

That's my lesson for the day. 




I left for college (10 hours from home) at age 18 and never returned back. So the only access to a doctor during that time was the college Doctor's office. After college I moved to southern Ontario where it is practically impossible to find a family Doctor... and I didn't find one for another 4 years. This past October was my first physical in about 6 years (not good, I know). Because I hadn't seen a doctor in so long (besides at walk-in-clinics) I was so nervous to get a physical!! When they called me back for my results, every possible outcome popped into my head... I went to my appointment, waited for the doctor and 5 minutes later I was on my way. 


He looked over my results and said "everything looks good". 


That's it! That's what I worked myself up about? He didn't even mention my weight! 
I walked away relieved and never really thought about it again. 


Fast forward to present day. My current Employer is pretty awsome and right now they're on a "Health and Wellness" kick. Some of the great things that they have initiated so far are: Running programs lunch walks, 15 min yoga sessions every monday, etc. Each activity we participate in earns us points and when we accumulate 20 points we receive an extra "Flex day" (basically a day off whenever we like). 


It's a great incentive to get active! In order to earn this Flex Day, we also have to participate in a "Heart Healthy Clinic".  This meant that a nurse would come into our office and meet with us individually and take our weight, measurements, BMI, blood pressure, cholesterol, etc. 


Once again, I worked myself up about this so much! I barely ate this morning (worrying that the scale would be up!). Obviously I know I'm overweight and my BMI is high, but I was still scared that she was going to tell me something that I didn't want to hear...


Guess what?? The nurse made me feel GREAT! She told me that I look a lot smaller than I weigh (an upside of being taller), then she told me that I had a small waist while taking my measurements. Those comments alone, were lovely. She then sat me down and reviewed my numbers and told me everything was great and just because I'm overweight doesn't mean that I'm not healthy. 


Isn't that the truth! I guess it was kind of like an "aha!" moment for me. I now feel much better about myself in general.  


So the day I've been dreading for the past couple weeks actually turned into a pretty good day! :) 

Keeping it to myself

I've never been an "over sharer" and I've always had trouble completely opening up to people, even my own family and best friends.  I'm not sure why I've had issues talking to my parents in the past. I've gotten better with it, but it's still an issue that I battle with. It's not even that my parents are judgemental or harsh people... they're the exact opposite! I couldn't have asked for better parents. They've never criticized any decisions that I have made and they've always been 100% supportive in everything that I have done.

The same goes with my friends. Rarely do I complain or vent to them (that's what friends are for!) and I'm always the first one they come to when they need to vent. I'm constantly giving advise on relationships, babies, work, etc... yet I find it so hard to ask for advise from them.

Growing up overweight obese creates a lot of insecurities. I worry SO much what other people think of me. Not just on my appearance, but my romantic life, work life, etc.

Here's a good example: I work with some amazing ladies and I'm pretty close with about 10 of them. When I started dating my boyfriend, only 2 of them knew. My boyfriend and I took things slow and we never did have that "relationship talk". So of course, I was constantly wondering if we were going to last or if we were "serious" and if we did end things, the last thing I wanted to do is have to explain to everyone in my office that we broke up. Because of my constant insecurities and wondering what people would think.. I didn't tell my coworkers that I had a boyfriend for 5 months... FIVE MONTHS! Needless to say, they were shocked and slightly offended that I never told them. When I look back at it, it was stupid of me for worrying so much. Everyone goes through breakups and even if things didn't work out, my coworkers would never have judged me, but I hate being the centre of attention like that.
(It also took me about 2 months to mention my bf to my parents and that's only because I lived with my sister and she told them first!).



I haven't told anyone that I've started this blog. I'm not sure if I want to. I've never told anyone how much I actually weigh and the thought of everyone knowing (including my boyfriend!) scares the crap out of me!
Perhaps I'll feel more comfortable with it once I'm closer to my goal weight. Who knows, maybe blogging will help me open more to the people in my life.

In the mean time, I'll just overshare with blogging community :)

Goals and Rewards

I have a hard time deciding on "mini" goals and the rewards that should go along with them. 
I also have a bad habit of rewarding myself with food. I saw a quote on Pinterest that said "Stop rewarding yourself with food, you're not a dog". So true! 


Goals & Rewards


259 (-20): Black heels
254 (-25): Pedicure
249 (-30): Workout clothes
244 (-35): Pedicure
239 (-40): ipod shuffle
234 (-45): Saphora Make up
229 (-50): A new outfit (head-to-toe)
224 (-55):
219 (-60):
214 (-65):
209 (-70):
204 (-75):
199 (-80): Tattoo!! 
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Goal weight (possibly 150): Sky diving!


There are a lot of blank ones, but I'll fill them out as I get closer :)

Snow Day!

It's the last week of April... and it's snowing!
I'm not sure why I'm surprise. I grew up in Northern Ontario where I spent many May Long weekends camping and praying that it wasn't going to snow. Back in March we experienced almost  +30 (Celsius) degree weather and it was amazing! It was definitely a tease though because it hasn't been very nice since and today it's cold and snowy/rainy.


On a brighter note... some coworkers and I braved the snow and went for a jog after work. It was chilly, but it felt great to be out running jogging again. I'm working up to running a 5k, hopefully this summer! A few weeks back I managed to get a groin injury and it still isn't completely healed. It hurt a little bit today, but not too much so I'm hoping it's almost healed!


This crappy weather has got me thinking daydreaming about Mexico... My boyfriend's parents own a place in Playa Del Carmen, Mexico and we were lucky enough to go there for 10 days in February.. it was lovely!

I miss this... .  

and eating delicious coconut ice cream...

and parasailing...

and the view while parasailing...

and beach hair....

and happy hour...

and flowers like this, everywhere...

and views like this...

and beaches like this....

and water like this....

and relaxing like this ....

and swimming with these guys!! <3

Here goes nothing!

I love reading blogs. 


I need to lose weight. 


I must stay motivated. 


Why not start my own blog? 


I've been throwing around the idea of starting my own blog for a little while now. There are so many amazing blogs out there and some very inspiring women! I would love to become an inspiring women that other girls, just like me, will come to for inspiration and motivation. 


Last friday I weighed in at 264lbs. In January I weighed 279. I intend on posting my weigh-ins every friday to keep my self accountable and invite anyone else to join me! I'm hoping this blog will give me a kick in the butt to keep going and lost this weight once and for all! 


I've never, EVER been a "normal" size, so it's hard to determine what my ideal weight would be. I would love to see 150 on my scale one day, but I think I will re-evaluate that number once I hit Onderland. My first mini goal is to see the 250's and not enter the 260's again!